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I used my bike. I drove it to the gym nearby, not a long trip, but it got me in the process of getting used to the seat. The tune-up was a splendid job. It rides like new. Brakes are firm, gears are responsive. It will take a while to get used to the bike helmet (I never wore one before, first time in my life I have a bike helmet), but at least it allows air to move.

I have been pondering my career. A thought, one that has simmered in the back of my mind for….a few years at any rate, has flared up. It would be a change, a big one. A complete right angle to my current career, and a direction I have not spoken to anyone about. If I chose to pursue it (probably after the move), it would be a big cut in pay, at least at first, but would promise to recover in a few years. There was a catalyst that brought it up the forefront just this week, and it has been heavily on my mind the past several days. It would be a HUGE change (as in, it’s not even software related), and would also carry some challenges for my free time…ones that may interfere in my ability to do shows, and that alone gives me a big pause (a bigger pause than the pay cut).

I’ve had mixed feelings about my current job for a while. I’m good at it, I am paid decently for it, and I enjoy it….but I am not fulfilled by it. I show up to work, to earn my pay, to go home, to actually start enjoying myself. I have a measure of fun at work, but always am happier to leave and go do something engaging, especially when I am involved with a show. This has made me wonder for a bit what’s kept me there. Actually that’s not that hard a question, good pay for work I am skilled at, funds for my leisure time, and really a fairly equitable working environment (my office environment is pretty decent really, that’s not what’s driving this).

No….I am not saying right now what it is that I’m thinking, I think I want to hold on to that detail a little longer. No, it’s not the military (which some people might assume).

Originally published at Mike Pictor.

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A wise man once said (and other people may be thinking it)…

I’ve been doing a lot of radical things with my life lately, both small and large. These may seem like reactionary independence behaviours following a breakup….and that they may be, but several of them had their seeds before we split up, I’m just following through now. Still….acting on them may none the less be reactionary, that could be.

So be it, I am enjoying shaking the tree a little (and I won’t follow through on my last post lightly).

Originally published at Mike Pictor.